~ Confusion and doubt are always necessary preludes to clarity and strength ~
This year had started promising for me as most new years do I guess. We are full of hopes and energy to accomplish the things we have set out to accomplish. We plan out our year in advance, or at least I have to because of my business. About a week ago I sort of hit a road block that stopped me right in my tracks. I think I have been too focused on finishing tasks and being proactive that I have completely used up all my resources and energy. I have neglected the things that are near and dear to my heart and instead focused all my energy on the things that needed to be done. The German "superhuman" cannot waste her valuable time on idle pursuits! Oh no, one has to be productive. So by now my energy has run out, the engine overheated and the passion has left like the air thats been let out of a balloon. Time to re-organize and re-prioritize!
I had a conversation about this with a very dear friend of mine the other day and she said something that hit the nail on the head. She said she usually likes to see herself as this deeply connected being, and she likened it to being out in open space and everything is illuminated as far as the eye can see. A strong and determined woman that knows exactly where she going and what she wants, graced with clarity and piercing intuition. Yet lately she had been feeling anything but. More like a miner in a deep dark cave equipped only with a small lamp strapped to the forehead. The lamp only provides enough light for her to see her next step and that is it. And she is stabling about in the darkness using her hands and feet to find her way around.
I was totally there with her. I could relate. I was feeling the same way. Only she had the words to describe my, our predicament. Maybe it is the aftermath of the mercury retrograde. Maybe it is because its winter time and all I want to do is stuff my face with food or just cuddle up in bed with a good book and a cup of tea. It seems as though there is much shifting and changing in my life as well as the people who are close to me. Things changing internally that will affect the external of my life soon, although I cannot see the end result yet. Changes in the making.... In any case if there is anything that I have learned throughout the years of working on myself and clients, it is that times like these are necessary for our own personal growth. The tough times are our biggest teacher. We regularly go through phases of confusion and clarity in our lives. We need the confusion, frustration, fear, doubt and anger to help us know who we are. Only through the opposites are we able to know what clarity, strength, love, joy and excitement really are! For now this is what I am clinging to ;-) and you are welcome to do the same. I know it will get better.
Another one bites the dust!
Here we are again at the end of a, well let's face it, pretty challenging year to say the least. All the hoopla, eating and craziness of Christmas is over. By now the last family members have left to go back home and you finally have a quiet moment to yourself again. You feel bloated, constipated and exhausted. The house is in need of a serious cleaning and you probably are as well (energetically I mean). What a way to go out with a bang. You gotta love the month of December. Why do we have to cram so much stress, events and parties into a time of year when we all should be hibernating in bed with a good book and a hot tea!
Oh well, it isn't all bad. I love this season although it probably is the most challenging one of the year for me as well. As you can tell by now this month I do not have a wise message or deeply transformative information for you. Sometimes we just need to take a break, even from the spiritual stuff! Life is all about balance and although we may have stuffed our faces with the worst kind of foods and received and overload of sugar in the past couple of weeks, it is ok. We have all next year to get back into shape, start our health routine and chant our mantras.
But for now just rest. Read the book you have been meaning to finish for a while. Paint that painting thats been on your mind and go for a walk like you have been meaning to. Re-charge, re-define and find your center again. You gonna need it because next year has some pretty challenging energies in store for us as well. But you know what, if we have made it so far, that stuff ain't gonna knock us down!
Oh what a year it's been!
As we are nearing the end of this most challenging and deeply transformative year our energies are finally starting to center and settle down again. What a year it has been. When you thought it couldn't get any more challenging and physically draining the year 2015 just had a way of slapping you in the face over and over again. It was an unforgiving year at times for those of us who couldn't seem to let go of their muck and limiting views of themselves and the world around them.
Everything was shifting wether you wanted it to or not. What you couldn't release the universe took care of for you, sometimes in a drastic way. All throughout this process however the universe was always supporting you into becoming a better and more fulfilled version of yourself. Your prayers had been heard and answered. Little did you know what changes were necessary in order for you to receive what you were asking for. It was all a blessing in disguise; a lesson in self-empowerment and self-worth. Oh how much we have learned not just about ourselves this year but also about our family history and patterns. We learned that despite all of the trauma, drama and craziness we have access to unfathomable strength and resilience we never thought we had. In the eye of the storm we entered the serene and calming clarity that would push us through even the most challenging moments. Yes we cried, yes we cursed and fought but we never truly gave up. We now have access to a much deeper truth and knowing about ourselves that provides us with immense strength and grace. This allows us to move on our paths in more positive and empowering ways than ever before.
We finally understand that having made mistakes and bad choices does not mean we are failures. It is these mistakes and faults that make us stronger and bring us closer to our truth. They help us appreciate ourselves and the path we have been on that brought us to this point. This point of utter exhaustion but also the point of peace that comes from acceptance. There is no shame in failure. You can always choose again. No matter what you do and how much you try and avoid it. This is the truth that is true always about you. And that my fellow souls is very comforting, because there is no judgement only the judgement you have about yourself. So take some time this month to ponder this and what you have learned about yourself this year. Honor the progress you have made and recognize that no matter what your story was in the past; it does not have to be your story in the future!
Feel that sparkle!
The year has been quiet challenging in may ways and it finally seems as though we are regaining our strength again. All the full moons, eclipses, the equinox as well as the multiple retrogrades were really messing with our energetic eco systems; making us release and re-evaluate yet again. What you couldn't seem to let go of, the universe took care of for you wether you liked it or not. Physical challenges brought us on the brink of exhaustion and utter confusion. It was almost as if a part of us was dying; the very old and outworn self only to emerge from the ashes like a magnificent phoenix in November. Now slowly you are finding our center again and are more grounded in who you are. It is very important that you keep grounding your energies daily and connect with your core to re-enforce these new frequencies and anchor them into your being. There is a sparkle that has ignited new ideas you have never thought possible or given up on a long time ago. Things are falling into place and you are naturally attracting the right people to you. You are ripe with new ideas and it is now truly time to nurture these new found possibilities with daily action. Soon you will see your dream flourish and in the new year it will take off. Don’t hold back now and don’t doubt or limit yourself any longer. No more compromises. Reach for the stars. You deserve the best. Feel your passion rush back into your life; it’s been so long since you felt it.
Un-Do, Un-Try, Un-Make
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