Evolving spiritually as we all know isn´t always an easy task and for those who are really committed to the journey it can entail some rather painful realizations and uncomfortable changes. We are constantly going through these changes almost daily. We also go through regular recuperation and recharging periods, which are extremely necessary, but can sometimes bear the illusion that you are somehow stuck or stagnant in your progress. The function of these recuperation phases are for you to reflect upon what has happened and for your physical body to adjust to the spiritual change that has happened within you and to ultimately recharge for the next step on your journey.
Well I am going through one of these painful phases of reflecting, understanding and trying to look past the illusions. Being back in my old hometown after so many years
it somehow doesn´t feel like home anymore, which saddened me deeply at first. Everything is the same: the city, the people, the places so what has changed? Well I realized that it was me. I seemed to have outgrown , so to speak, my old self. It is, in a way, a triumph of course, because I know I am more myself today that I ever was before. My idea of how I was and how I was in relation to other people and different situations is just an old memory of a person´s life that doesn´t exist anymore. We seem to hold on to outworn roles, relationships or problems because it feels safe to do so in its familiarity. We need to trust that we are more than our roles, beliefs and stories. I know that many people out there reading this can relate to what I am "saying". How many of you had to let people (boyfriend, family, friends) go because you have outgrown the relationships. Or how many of you are still clinging to an idea an illusion, too afraid to let go thinking you will have nothing left if you let go?! Trust that you will gain something more important and so much more precious - YOURSELF - and the inner peace that goes with this realization. It does not mean you need to end all contact but rather let them go with a smile knowing that they too are on a very important and adventurous spiritually journey. The only difference is that it takes them somewhere else. No need to try and change their minds or change who you are. Everything is happening exactly the way it is supposed to according to the perfect law of the universe I call evolution of the soul.
Well all this took me a while to realize as well, but I had my recuperation phase to do so ;-)! It gives me a sense of peace with a bittersweet feeling of joy and a hint of sadness when looking back at all the moments that so perfectly were woven together to ultimately bring me here to write this article. It´s almost like saying goodbye to a great friend, only the friend is an old you, and as you wave goodbye you both know you will never see each other again but always appreciate the moments and roads you walked together.
Life is crazy, but even in the seemingly chaotic moments you can find a pattern, a method to the madness if you will. You just need to look deeper.
This is another example of you being able to share with us what you have already experienced - but we, your students, are just now learning. Thank you for guiding us, ever so patiently.